I need another method of psychological release

Maybe I need to start smoking.

Obviously not, of course, but at least that would give me a zero calorie coping mechanism.

It's not been a great week so far, headspace-wise. There's a lot going on that I want to tune out at the moment, so I eat.

It happened with the large amount of Quality Street the other night, and there were a few more the next day.

At least day 30 kept relatively under control, but it had been an opportunity to make up for the previous day. One that I didn't take advantage of.

It's now Thursday morning. Saturday weigh-in is 48 hours away, and there's no weigh I'm 11st 9lb again this week.

I did remember the Wednesday weigh-in: it wasn't good, but more on that in a future post.

It's time to get my big boy pants on, focus, and get the hell on with it.

< 11st 8lb by next Saturday.

If I can do that, maybe I'll buy myself a present. One that isn't food or drink.

Day 30 - 2200 calories

Breakfast
Milk (100)
Snickers (250)
Ham sandwich (250)
Jaffa cakes (200)

Lunch
Chicken breast (200)
Lentil Soup (400)

Dinner
Skate wing (100)
Cadbury's fudge (150)
Buttered toast (150)
Quality Street (400)

Exercise
3x sets bicep curls
6x sets dumbbell raises
45m walking

Day 31 - 1500 calories

Breakfast
Milk (100)

Lunch
Ham sandwich (250)
Lentil Soup (400)

Snack
Chicken sandwich (300)

Dinner
2x Weetabix and milk (250)
Quality Street (100)
Dark chocolate (50)
Milk (50)

Exercise
45m walking

Day 32 -2000 calories

Breakfast
Milk (100)
Rice Krispie Square (250)
Half a breakfast bar (100)

Lunch
2x turkey steak sandwiches (750)

Dinner
Ham sandwich (150)
2x glasses wine (400)
Protein bar (250)

Exercise
Walking 80m

Day 33 - 3900

Breakfast
Milk (200)
2x Weetabix, milk and raisins (300)
Buttered toast (150)

Lunch
Ham and cheese croissant (500)
Scrambled egg croissant (550)

Snack
Square dark chocolate (50)
Small slice cake (50)
Snickers (250)

Dinner
Steak pie and veg (600)
Slice toast and jam (200)
4x chocolate biscuit bar (450)
Beer (200)
Wine (450)
2x Weetabix, milk and raisins (300)

Exercise
40m walking